Bored out of my mind...

Let me just say, i HATE staying at home. This is part of the reason that I would consider myself an active participant of moms groups. Life as a stay at home mom is not exactly what i thought it was going to be. There are so many times when I am so bored. I try to get out of the house as much as I can possibly afford, but there are some weeks when I am actually at home. This happens to be one of those weeks (well, last week too). Ask anyone who knew me when i was growing up and you would seldome find me at home. I know many people thought that I was trying to escape my family and the drama that seemed to be a constant in my house growing up. I may have even thought that was the reason, but turns out I just cannot stand being home. I have this idealized fantasy of what I "should" be doing and when i do not measure up then I tune out and pack my girls in the car and go somewhere. I leave behind my months worth of laundry, sink full of dishes and unmade beds so that I can escape. There are many days when i wake up and I have no desire to kill myself cleaning and cooking just to turn around and see that my two little hurricanes have left a scene that could rival Katrina and start screaming that they are hungry again. Well that is what has happened in the last week or so. If I have to watch one more Grey's Anatomy episode (I have the first four seasons) then i swear i will scream. This is one of the bad aspects to moving. I am staying home convincing myself that I "should" be packing and getting ready to move ( this weekend, i mght add), but again I have no desire. Generally, I could occupy my boredom by setting up Christmas decorations, but with the move I cannot even do that. I need to get away. I need to do something. Agghhhhhh this is torture.